Yes! There will be Black Dynamite on Adult Swim this summer! I can’t wait. Adult Swim has been ridiculous for years. My only reason to tune is The Boondocks. I can’t do all that other nasty, borderline pedophile shit they play otherwise. Anyway, I digress.
I felt the need to leave the house and work this morning. The beach or B&N? The bookstore won even though in the past the beach was just too big of a draw. So, I walk inside and a woman greets me. Turns out our congressman, Marco Rubio, will be here today. Damn. I should’ve brought some tomatoes.
I have to pass the magazine section to get to the filling station, Starbucks, and spotted an anime black man with an afro and bullet is between his teeth. Black Dynamite is on the cover of Juxtapoz magazine. You know I bought it.
So now I’m jazzed! I can’t wait to see it. Black Dynamite is my BABY DADDY. lol.
Back to work, now.
Should be an interesting day.
“The King of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in responsibility. I surround myself with the conditions I wish to create and therefore have everything I need to be successful and independent according to my values and purpose. I consider the welfare of others and am a master in production. I am empowered by, and it is my honor to be, generous in offering or reproducing security, stability, and protection by my virile and reliable example. My assets are perennial trust, respect, and validation that is well deserved.”
Over the past few months, so much emotion bubbled over and I floundered, at times, while attempting to make sense of it all. I’ve learned two things so far though. Do the best I can and take control of my life, guide the ship instead of just riding the waves.
One way to do that is to “surround myself with the conditions I wish to create”. I’ve already started that process. Taking martial arts with my family builds character & strength. It’s so amazing that we do it together! Three generations becoming physically healthy and mentally strong. That’s a condition that I love to be surrounded in, feels good inside and out. Which is what this journey is all about, right?
Basically, I must create an atmosphere within myself of calm detachment, ambition, empathy, passion and strength. I’m doing this by surrounding myself with goal oriented, ambitious, friendly yet professional people who get things done. It ignites a spark within me when I am able to share intellectual yet productive conversations with like minded folks. It’s a great way to exercise the mind and senses.
This card has inspired me to make it my theme of the day. As our sensei taught us yesterday, “Create a goal and visit it often.” Sounds like great advice to me!
Thank You, Universal Intelligence!
There are so many names we call you but we all feel you just the same.
I know how I view Facebook. To me, it should be a meeting of the minds…a think tank. Although there are some traces of what could be interpreted as just that, it’s disappointing to know that the minds that are thinking this stuff in the tank are so…limited.
Why do we call what most of us do on the internet Social Networking? I mean, we do network but should we really? Should cyber socializing replace the tangibility of feeling someone out? Is it better to have a hunch before learning too much of someone’s propaganda?
So many times I’ve met people online whose ‘social network’ persona was the antithesis of what they were in Real Time. It disappointed me because I realized I’d forgotten that the digital world is just a game. It’s only a game of ‘let’s pretend’ inside a larger game of ‘this is reality as you know it’. So,I’ve observed that it’s time for me to come out of the rabbit hole and manifest some miracles in my reality, what ever that may be.
Going off the grid can be quite exhilirating. Whenever I’ve set aside a day to just create and unplug from all of the drama in the digital world, I’ve had the most amazing experiences. Yesterday, I used a tarot deck for the first time. That was a lot for me. I am conquering my fear of the unknown. If I hadn’t pulled myself into the real world of ME, I wouldn’t have tapped into that other world of mystery. Very potent stuff for a recovering self derision specialist.
So, I’ve decided to dedicate my Wednesdays to being digital distraction free. No internet radio, no computer time period. Just me, a pen and a pad…maybe some music on a small hand held, we’ll see. Definitely an escape from technology. My day to tune in to something higher than myself for answers.
And So It Is.
I was in the quaqmire of emotion this morning. Then I spotted an Abraham Hicks video that a friend posted on Facebook. I’d heard of Abraham Hicks but never read or heard anything for myself. Imagine my surprise when a woman’s voice began speaking to me.
The video talked about reality and our need to shift focus in order to attract what we want. It resonated with me. I am now a fan.
I retract my statements from earlier this morning. My focus is shifted and I am raising my vibration.
Stepping forward into my destiny. Seeing isn’t always believing. Thank You Abraham Hicks.
What is negative energy but evil? My best friend asked me that question today. She made the point that some people are just inherently evil and it’s my responsibility to recognize that evil people exist.
I believe that everyone has the capacity to be good. To shine bright. To be enlightened. Even if that person does vile and despicable things, he or she may still have an essence of pure goodness somewhere. But, recently, I’ve been bombarded on all sides with evil also known as negative energy.
Now, it’s time to choose teams. It was easy to remove my self from certain social circles in an attempt to avoid evil. In some ways it’s worked but the change hasn’t been drastic enough. Now it’s time to just establish Team Crystal and only trust that scant few.
That’s not so easy. There are people who feel more comfortable floating in some form of neutrality. In other instances that would be fine with me. But in the fight between good and evil, you’re either on one team or the other. That’s the truth as I see it.
So, I finally realize that there are some truly evil people in this world. People who come to you with what seems like love but really is just a vampiric absorption of your energy. People who can get close to you just so they can hurt you over and over. People who may not realize that they are evil but just are.
I am good. The people who love me tell me I’m good. People who don’t know me tell me I’m good. I feel that I really exude positive energy most of the time.
The times I’ve struggled have been when my energy clashes with someone elses. Not every energy that clashes with mine is evil. But, every once and a while it simply comes down to good vs evil.
Ever just have one of those days? I had that day today. I don’t know if I feel pain, heartbreak, sorrow, free, shocked or sad. My mentor died. His mother called me crying her heart out. I feel so bad for her and I feel guilty for not staying in contact with him more although I knew he was very ill. The kyoshi at our dojo committed suicide and now there’s a pending pedophile investigation…supposedly. I didn’t hear the news from an official source. A friend told me.
To put the cherry on the shit cake, I had another round of emotional interchanges with someone I need to just forget. Was it only yesterday that we made peace? I was optimistic about our friendship. We just don’t mesh and need to stay away from each other. I have deleted myself from yet another group and potential circle of friends because I just can’t take it.
So, at this moment I am listening to healing meditation music. I need to work on my novel for the 30 Day Book Writing Challenge…and I will. I just need a minute’s peace. Hopefully venting in this blog will help blow off some steam. Send me some Love and Light, please.
This Crab’s swimming in some pretty turbulent waters…and everyone knows crabs are not great swimmers.