I woke up this rising with a strange, unsettled feeling. It was if all of my intentions meant nothing and the spectre of depression kept creeping up behind me, tickling me with knobby, cold fingers.
I prayed in bed, as I usually do, but forgot to do my meditation. Maybe that was the beginning of the disconnect. I hadn’t tended my entire garden. Balance had not been achieved.
It’s been an odd holiday season. I keep thinking of my ex and how last Christmas was so different. I am trying not to stress but bills are stealing my desire for a joyous noel.
I’ve got a lot on my mind.
But it is time to let it go.
I am healed…whenever I am ready.
I am ready.
So it is.
On a lighter note, now that I have vented, it’s time to get to some self healing. Popping in a meditation and getting to work preparing for my date in the rising.
Oh, yea…I’m dating myself and it’s a beach date. I took some cute pics for me, too. I worked out and today I had:
Breakfast- Corn English Muffin with apricot pineapple preserves and two slices of turkey bacon,
Lunch- Ravioli and a half glass of red wine,
Dinner- Cheese pizza, red wine and coffee,
Snack- bag of popcorn.
No eating after nine today. Yay!
So…no more angst and no more regrets. It’s a new day…well it’s night time but you get it.
Enjoy your evening!