I just can’t do this bitch of a day anymore. I’ve felt so many emotions, not to mention cramps, all frickin’ day and I am OVER it. Ok?
Ok. (Yes I meant to write it twice.) I know that I have a lot of shit I’m dealing with right now but I still feel guilty about feeling sad. I mean , is it a woman thing? A black woman thing? What is this? Why should I feel guilty for not being chipper all the gotdang time? Ugh.
I really didn’t intend to write these words. I really didn’t…but sometimes stuff just bubbles up and comes out. I have learned to respect this process. It’s not insanity. It’s acceptance of myself as an eccentric and spiritually self absorbed entity. Wait. That may seem insane to some. Well, to those who think I’m crazy, I say, “So what? That’s better than boring. I’ll take me over boring any day of the week. What’s today?”
Anyway…I’m feeling a lot less angsty now that I’ve let off some steam. Guess I just needed to ‘express’. That’s what I used to call those times when I had tantrums. My need to ‘express’ myself. I no longer have those. Now, I blog.
“I Am Grateful. I Really Am. So Why Am I Still Crying?”, was the original title of this post. Now, I’m changing the name to “Another One of Crystal’s Five Minute Rants About Her Frickin’ Feelings…Again”, or something like that.