This morning has been an emotional hot mess. I’ve cried. I’ve been angry. I’ve been trying to pinpoint the source of these feelings. I do have pms…but I can’t blame my body for this.

It’s my career. I can’t help but feel that I’m spinning my wheels. For the past few days I’ve tried working it out with positive affirmations, prayer, meditation. I just have to acknowledge this feeling and let it ride.

Sadness. I don’t like feeling sadness.

I’m really, really trying. I’m really, really trying to grab some semblance of happiness…but I can feel myself going down, down, down.

Maybe it’s time for a change. Maybe I’m just not meant to be a teacher. I’ve dedicated so much of my life to pursuing this goal but…I feel like a dog chasing her tail.

I don’t like this feeling.  I want to feel successful. Happy. I want to be able to support my family.

I want. I want. I want.

But, what will be?

Pray for me. please. I need some Love and Light.

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