Affirmations and Manifestations.

I am currently listening to Louise Hay. She gets me going. I like hearing her voice softly speaking messages of love into my subconscious. This is the soundtrack of my undertaking.

Today my Life Coach, Sista Friend and Manifesting Counselor opened a new game. First step?

” Write your goals, hopes and dreams for 2016.”

I love this part…although sometimes getting started can be a little daunting.  Writing my goals and Definite Purpose has been an amazingly awesome tool for manifesting blessings in my life. This year, 2015, has been full of forward movement on this life journey. I’ve painted more. Written more. Gotten my Dream Job. It’s been good.

In the new year, I will continue on the path of My Definite Purpose. It feels good to be on the path of success. It feels good to manifest the things I want and need. I feel Deep Gratitude and Love.



Another goal is to develop my physical health and beauty. It fascinates me. With my new found body consciousness and a few fashion adjustments, I’ve felt so much more beautiful. More confident. I feel as if I deserve to choose the love I want in my life. As I develop my physical strength, my inner strength grows. I like the feeling…and you know how we Cancers love to revel in our feelings.

Speaking of Love, this new year will also be dedicated to aligning myself with a partner. I’m beginning to feel the tugs of my heart. Exploring possiblities for new love has already made me curious. What type of person/energy do I want? Do I want to lay back and wait while working on self or do I want to ‘get out there’ and go for it? Not sure of my approach yet but Love is definitely on this Cancer’s mind.

I’m sure that there’s more for me to write in my manifestation statement. I’m sure that my list will grow and develop over time…but what do I have but time? What better way to spend it?










MILF…Who Me?

Apparently, it’s the year of the MILF. For those not in the know, Google it and Giggle. I for one am glad to be of interest but…is it a thing when everyone who’s hit on me so far has been under thirty? Should I be honored that so many twenty somethings find me attractive? I’m not denying the fact that I’m flattered…but what does it all mean?


Ok. I do have a flair for the dramatic. It IS flattering to be noticed. It’s nice to be approached by an attractive person who just happens to be too young. I feel pretty and smile alot when someone flirts with me…I also wonder if I should be keeping my eyes open for age appropriate suitors.


At 42, I think under thirty is a bit too close to my oldest son’s age. He’s twenty. Anyone who could’ve gone to school with him is definitely not for me. My cut off these days is between 38 and 45. But am I limiting myself by not being open to those a little older or younger than I expect?


Since I’ve opened myself up to dating again, I’ve noticed about seventy percent of the people who hit on me are very, very young.


Hmm…maybe I can be more flexible. I am a Cancer. Apparently we attract youngins’.



It’s About That Time Again, Folks.


As I scroll through the photos of this past year, I feel a deep sense of Gratitude. Ok…I’ve also giggled a lot. I mean, if I were a stranger reading this collection of my random thoughts and introspections, I would probably come away with the impression that the person writing this stuff is a bit self absorbed, a little bit crazy and a whole lotta strange…but well meaning.

But, then again…is that a bad thing?


I am a little bit off kilter…but that’s what makes me one cool a** mothaf…er.


I am a bit self absorbed…but I like to call it being self reflective. That sounds less vain.

I could be described as a little strange but…normal folk bore the sh*t outta me. So, strange is good, eh?

I’m a little bit country…and a little bit Rock and Roll. Sounds like fun!

I know some equally strange and awesome folk. This year I spent time with quite a few of them. It feels good to commune with like minds and free spirits.


It’s been quite the year, 2015. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed it. I’ve written more and painted more than ever before…and there’s more in the works.

I’ve been blessed immensely and I have the career I’ve been praying for all along. My Gratitude is Unending. My Happiness is, at my very core, Limitless.

I’m looking forward to the New Year. There’s more laughter in store.


New Love to activate.

More art to create and new words to write.

It’s exciting.

I’m Grateful.

This is A Wonderful Feeling.

Love and Light!

Namaste…and Namascray.


The Oracle Was Right.


I’ve missed leaving my thoughts written in this safe space. My job, which I simultaneously Love and Fear, has kept me so wrapped up that I barely find time to watch Samurai Jack reruns with Ako or bug Amir to help me with the dishes. I love teaching…but get to do so little of it as a Public School Teacher. Strange but True. I’m having shades of Corporate Angst…but hey, I’m in it win it.

It’s Christmas Eve and all is right in my little corner of the world. My  in-laws are having the floors and kitchen redone. The new fridge is on and stuffed to gills for the holiday. The new stove? N0t even plugged in.


My mother in-law left me in charge of the holiday vittles so we’re having roast turkey (which will be reheated on the grill), grilled asparagus and seven layer salad…not to mention the abundance of Pecan pie, Hummingbird Cake and a few other scrumptious goodies. There’s Hot Chocolate, which I like to spike with cayenne and popcorn…just in case we get to a holiday movie.

Even though the house is under construction, we’re all in the Christmas mood. It helps having a youngin’ in the house. Amir has been excited about the joyous occasion and his enthusiasm is contagious. Yay! Awesome.


This month I finished a 21 day Beachbody Challenge with an accountability group called Discover Your Flow. It has been a spiritual, mental and physical journey. I’ve lost weight but more importantly, I’ve learned that my body is just as important as my mind and my spirit. There’s a new challenge next month. I’m already signed up for it.

Oh, WordPress! How I’ve missed you. I miss writing. I miss my online family. I’ve missed your stories and pictures. Let’s not be a part for so long of a time anymore. You are my release.

With the new year coming up, or maybe it’s Mama Moon in her unabashed and full glory, I’ve become more and more interested in new love. I’ve also been pondering old loves, situations and affairs. I’ve been contacted by old lovers. I know why. It’s because I’ve put that energy out there and I want to move forward in a way that’s positive and uplifting. By learning the lessons of my past and applying them, I hope to be more lucky in love.

It’s never too late and a girl never gets to old for romance.

Anyway, it is Christmas Eve and I must finish all of my chores or Santa won’t drop off my presents.

Til next time,

I Love you, Crystal.

I Love you, too…Crystal.


Has It Been That Long?

I haven’t written for a while. I’ve missed it.

The last few times I wrote in this journal, my energy was so all over the place. My new job is intense and at times, emotional. I’m torn between the shock of how corporate everything feels and how dismal the situation of our education system has gotten.

But now, I’ve found a way to manage ‘toxic energy shock syndrome’. For those who don’t know, toxic energy shock syndrome is my way of describing the feeling many of us feel when we are thrust into a situation expecting one thing and dive in, only to realize that things are not quite what they seem.

Cool. Now I know what I’m working with in my new role. I joined an accountability group and the BeachBody program has really been the eye of the storm. I can control what I eat and how I treat my physical body…even when I feel out of sorts in other areas. That serves as some comfort.

I also LOVE the fact that most of my class is AWESOME and although we don’t always see eye to eye, our relationship has gotten much better. Sometimes I forget that this new generation is so different from mine. The things I used to assume don’t always apply anymore…and that’s ok.

I’ve let go of my constant need to be perfect. That’s pretty much unrealistic right now. But, I’ve grown. I’m more patient. I’m more in touch with the youth and our nation’s future. I can analyze the structure from within and deconstruct it in my mind in order to solve the riddle, “How do I teach in way that my students will learn?”

This takes up most of my time now. I am glad for the opportunity to release this energy. I am glad to have the language to explain myself logically, intelligently and with passion.

Thank You, Divine Mother!

Thank You, Infinite Intelligence!

My prayers are being answered and I acknowledge this. I am forever GRATEFUL and full of Love and Light.