I haven’t written for a while. I’ve missed it.
The last few times I wrote in this journal, my energy was so all over the place. My new job is intense and at times, emotional. I’m torn between the shock of how corporate everything feels and how dismal the situation of our education system has gotten.
But now, I’ve found a way to manage ‘toxic energy shock syndrome’. For those who don’t know, toxic energy shock syndrome is my way of describing the feeling many of us feel when we are thrust into a situation expecting one thing and dive in, only to realize that things are not quite what they seem.
Cool. Now I know what I’m working with in my new role. I joined an accountability group and the BeachBody program has really been the eye of the storm. I can control what I eat and how I treat my physical body…even when I feel out of sorts in other areas. That serves as some comfort.
I also LOVE the fact that most of my class is AWESOME and although we don’t always see eye to eye, our relationship has gotten much better. Sometimes I forget that this new generation is so different from mine. The things I used to assume don’t always apply anymore…and that’s ok.
I’ve let go of my constant need to be perfect. That’s pretty much unrealistic right now. But, I’ve grown. I’m more patient. I’m more in touch with the youth and our nation’s future. I can analyze the structure from within and deconstruct it in my mind in order to solve the riddle, “How do I teach in way that my students will learn?”
This takes up most of my time now. I am glad for the opportunity to release this energy. I am glad to have the language to explain myself logically, intelligently and with passion.
Thank You, Divine Mother!
Thank You, Infinite Intelligence!
My prayers are being answered and I acknowledge this. I am forever GRATEFUL and full of Love and Light.