Time is an illusion anyway, isn’t it? It’s Solar Plexus Week and I am Loving It. Lessons that I needed to really apply, because I kinda already learned them, have presented themselves…and it’s only Tuesday.
First, I learned a while back that sex without any really intimacy is a waste of time. I’ve also learned to listen and ask questions when someone offers sex to me. I don’t want to waste my time getting dirty, faking pleasure and driving home unfulfilled. I am soooo glad that I am smart enough to apply this knowledge instead of recreating tragic scenes from my 20’s. In fact, that may be the title for my next movie, “Tragic Scenes from My 20’s”. It’d be an emo-comedy/ after school special.
So, I turned down the sex. One, I knew it’d be bad because he kept saying things that didn’t sound like he’d even considered my pleasure. What gives dude? If I just wanted someone to shove a foot-long pole in me, I could do that myself…and that is not sexy to me. I feel proud of myself, too. I didn’t slink away. I actually had an empowering conversation with said dude. I let him know that what he was offering was not interesting to me in the slightest. He seemed to take it in stride. If not, I did… and if he can be selfish, I can be cavalier.
Solar Plexus work is like that, I guess. I even said to him, “The Universe got jokes,” and chuckled a little. I’m loving this chakra cycle. I feel myself growing. Who knew? I’m learning myself after all of this time.