It’s funny how I just know things. Thoughts that flitted through my mind, things I can barely remember, leave clues of the future.
This isn’t one of those grand, apocolyptic visions. It’s more of a coincidence that i knew would happen.
I was toying around with a glass hookah my ex brought back from Egypt. My cellphone fell on it while I was flirting with someone. Oops!
But, I knew as soon as I put it there, next to my bed on the carpeted floor, that it’s time was near.
Did i will it? Did the subconscious me know that I didn’t need to meet the new year with my ex’s stuff around me?
Or…is it simply an accident?
Funny thing is I barely care. I don’t feel happy or sad that it’s broken. It just is.
Every day, in every way, I get better and better.
Dude. I woke up around ten a.m. brimming with post sugar overdose guilt so I drag, almost literally, my happy butt to the gym. First things first, I grab my post work out chocolate cappuccino. I am no saint just a girl fighting a love of all things combining chocolate and coffee.
In the gym, I made it through twenty minutes of the elliptical machine and some upright shoulder presses. Yay!
I’ve been looking for my one lb weights all week so I use the five lbers in my gym. That limits my spur of the moment workouts at home to mostly cardio. Is The Universe telling me it’s time for new weights?
So my day started on a good note. I worked out and immediately had a few cookies. What? It’s the holidays…lol.
Seriously, I know it’s time to cleanse so New Year’s Day is the day I start my kick off cleanse. In the meantime. I’ll keep smiling and moving…and possibly eating more cookies.
Who am I kidding?
Now…I went over my notes and realized that this blog is intended to celebrate my body’s development. So, I will continue to record my eating habits as well as daily exercise or movements and how my body looks as the days go by.
I promised my youngest that I wouldn’t go to the gym yesterday and today but I did squeeze in a fifteen minute routine. Short and sweet.
It’s Christmas. Have a cookie.
It’s Christmas Eve…yay! I’ve been alternating between baking like a Stepford,hanging out with The Jabari Brothers and staving off depression.
The sugar helps.
I forgot to journal my food foibles yesterday and to be honest, it’s The Holidays, I’ve been eating everything under the sun. In my defense, I’ve worked out so que cera cera.
Today’s been kinda mellow. I watched Dawn of the Planet of the Apes. Not appropriate but action packed and fun. Also, I baked a cake… but saving it for tomorrow
Have a Great Night!
Every day, in Every way, I am better and better.
Especially with copious amounts of sugar.
I woke up this rising with a strange, unsettled feeling. It was if all of my intentions meant nothing and the spectre of depression kept creeping up behind me, tickling me with knobby, cold fingers.
I prayed in bed, as I usually do, but forgot to do my meditation. Maybe that was the beginning of the disconnect. I hadn’t tended my entire garden. Balance had not been achieved.
It’s been an odd holiday season. I keep thinking of my ex and how last Christmas was so different. I am trying not to stress but bills are stealing my desire for a joyous noel.
I’ve got a lot on my mind.
But it is time to let it go.
I am healed…whenever I am ready.
I am ready.
So it is.
On a lighter note, now that I have vented, it’s time to get to some self healing. Popping in a meditation and getting to work preparing for my date in the rising.
Oh, yea…I’m dating myself and it’s a beach date. I took some cute pics for me, too. I worked out and today I had:
Breakfast- Corn English Muffin with apricot pineapple preserves and two slices of turkey bacon,
Lunch- Ravioli and a half glass of red wine,
Dinner- Cheese pizza, red wine and coffee,
Snack- bag of popcorn.
No eating after nine today. Yay!
So…no more angst and no more regrets. It’s a new day…well it’s night time but you get it.
Enjoy your evening!